Thank You ..

I'm back again .. This time not to vent or to day how bad my life is, cause right now I am changed. Up until a couple days ago, life wasn't amazing, I picked up cutting again, went into darkness. A place I now vow i will never go back to. I wasn't happy, I was questioning my faith. God, He took some drastic measures to get me back, He showed me some things I never knew, he opened my eyes to unnecessary people and even took away part of a friend that he knew I needed but I just didn't know how much she would've changed me. Thank You. That Friend? She is one of two people who literally saved my life. I was ready to go. But now .. Aha . Now .. I am changed. God brought me back. I've found myself again and now I know who I am. 

    Two people helped me find me again. These two people are slightly different but they have to same motives. One born maybe 2000 years ago and the other just turned 14 (: Sounds ridiculous right? Nah . I Promised I Wouldn't say sorry again so I'll try not to. You know that stereotypical friend from summer camp who eventually you learn that you can't live without? Yeah I got one of those .. But she's different from the day I Met her I knew she'd been hurt, I knew she had trust issues I knew she'd been through a lot, so I wanted to be different, giver her the friendship she deserves. I Messed Up.

   I Didn't realize that what I was doing to myself was hurting other people .. And How much It was hurting other people. But With This friend .. It wasn't just as simple mistake. I broke a promise. Something I Didn't even know meant so much to her and I broke it. I didn't just break it I shattered it. And I commit  to you ( not promise cause i bet you've heard to many and  cause I Probably know you're reading) that I will spend everyday proving that I am who I was. I Am different. There's no more darkness anywhere  I walk with light, but the main reason I'm writing all this gibberish is to let you know that you, your laugh at everything self .. Saved my life. You helped me get Nicole Lian Beaumont back. Thank You.
 You're Probably The Little ( yes little) sister God forgot to give me. Te Amo . A.A.A.A.J ღツ

The Lord is close to the broken hearted ,he rescues those who's spirits are crushed.
                                      Psalm 34:18 ✝

  To All the People Who Feel Like You Have Nothing Left , You're At The End Of The Road .. Find Someone Who You're Scared To Dissapoint Someone Who Will Tell You When You're Doing Complete Bullshit. Someone Who Know's Where You've Been And If You Can't Find That .. Talk To The One Who Gave You Breath.